心魔

一个看不到 摸不着
却能左右一个人的思绪
我只能说：心魔,你真可怕..

可是...'你'更加可怕..
我..真的很累很累，但为什么你不能放过我呢?
是我的表达方式有问题吗?
为什么你好像不明白我说的话?
我..不想伤害任何人..
但总不能因为这样伤害自己吧?!
问题，它其实一直都存在..
我真的不想在折磨自己..
我真的很累很累..
感觉不对,我有试着找回试着挽回.
可是...我失败了..
我不想再戴着面具面对..
我不想再戴着面具过日子..
我更不想明明心里不高兴,却假装面带微笑来面对你.
这的确是非常痛苦的事.
我承认.我也没有好到哪里去.
我也不是十全十美.
我试着包容过，体谅过.
但...我也只能说：一个人的包容心再大总有一天都是会满的..
我只想一个人静一静。过着一个人的生活.
这很难理解吗?!
我做的还不够明显?
还是讲的不够白?
渐渐开始觉得很烦.
我承认我是不成熟,我真的承认..
也许分开一段时间对大家都好..
继续下去只会让人越受伤...
我真的很累啊，放过我吧~
我只想简简单单的过完我的大学生涯，毕竟读书才是我现在最应该做的事.
我有自己的目标，自己的理想..
我更不想让父母失望..
放下未必是件坏事
死缠未必是件好事
我只想说放手吧,前方其实有更多事等着你去做...
烦啊!!!!!!😫😫😫😫😩😩😩
*请对号入座，谢谢*

-safe-

hard to find the way to get through,
its a tragedy..
pulling at me like the star do,you're like gravity..
even if the wind blows,it makes it hard to believe..
how you gonna love?
how you gonna feel?
how you gonna live your life,like the dream u have is real?
if u lost ur way, I'll keep u safe,we'll open up all the world inside,see it come alive tonight,I will keep u safe.
doesn't even matter to u to see wat I can see.
I'm crawling on the floor to reach u,
I'm wreck u see..
when you're far from home now,makes it hard to believe.
we all fall down..
we all feel down..
cause rainy days n summer highs..
the more we pray;the more we feel alive.....

BFF <3

I really can't rmb when is the last time we having our gathering..
yea~I'm really happy n enjoy it very much with them-my BFF..
with no any worries
with no any sadness
with no any gaps
we talk
we chat
we laugh
we share
we care...
I do not need to pretend myself infront of them..
I've tired with putting myself with a mask..
is really tired..

I do appreciate the moment with them..
I smile..is real n true smile.n it was from the bottom of my heart..
the friendship between us were never change..[although I'm the one who owax ffk ==']
I ❤ u guys••best friend forever••
•weijian•
•Ziyin•
•min•
•chong xiang•
•Rex•
•hernn•
•chai•
u guys had brighten up my day..tengiu~~<3

好累好累

突然觉得世界充满了黑暗..
成绩只是其中一小部分吧..
压抑已久的心绪再也隐藏不住..
泪水决堤了..
我需要一个肩膀，一个能让我依靠的肩膀..
我累了..
真的好累好累..

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Is blue color font...well, i really love blue color a lot..There are many people saying that blue represent the color of emo..but i don't think so..For me~it's represent clam..xD


Is another a long long time i didnt blogging...is kinda lazy actually..(i'm not tat pandai in expressing my feeling by writting)
IS the end of year 2 sem 1 in my degree life..well, tomorrow is the last paper for me and after tat i will officially having my very short sem break...(is less than 2 weeks..gosh!!!) 

Sometimes, what we expected is totally different in the real life..well, maybe is i expected too much on him or maybe i'm just too greedy..how to say?! it just kinda feeling..sometimes, i felt that we have no future,although i really wish to have. Is that i'm thinking too much? i really duno..what i felt is the feeling like already change..there is a gap between us!!!
i hate this kind of feeling...for him, i dun tink he realize anything change..maybe girls are always more sensitive than guys.there is something wrong between us!! is quite frustrated for me actually..But..life still go on...
i scared i will be hurt again and again..and i really dun wish something bad happen to me..
it's all fate~ i will try to do my best and try to bear with everything....how it will goes like?! it is all depend to god and i will just follow what the god has plan for me in my life... ... ....

four months ago..since i last log in and updated my blog...

kinda lazy actually..xD

time pass damn fast...this is the last week for my y1s3..
tat's mean FINAL EXAM is cuming soon...T.T

this sem quite relax~i juz take 2 subjects only..
building services and english for engineering..

is the time to say goodbye for my year 1 in FES...

(dun be happy,still have another 3 years to go..T,T)

again~i took out all my notes and plan to study it by today.

but...........KINDA LAZY!!!!!

no mood to study at all..

hey~come on..i need some spirit and motivation...

@.@

-end of story for my studies life-

quite worried for my daddy...

there is a stone inside my dad kidney and its make him in pain..

the pain is killing him..>.<

may god bless him and wish my dad can recover as soon....

aiksss...rainny day again..make me feel sleepy~~

T.T

紧锁的眉头有没有存在的理由?!
大声的嘶轰是否胜过平静的问候?!
无止的争斗到底让谁变得更富有?!
拥抱的时候怎么能紧握着拳头?!
聚和散背后有多少温暖在守候?!
谁不想自由??!
却忘了该付出的温柔...
痛哭过后会否比较好受??
放开过后或许会更自有....
很多时候我们只是在寻找借口....
什么是成就??
只要你微笑着点头~
欢笑过后会否一直回首?!
失去以后才学会如何看透....
回忆里什么陪我们走到最后?
还不是那些最简单的温柔