心淡

很多时候..
其实很多事情并不能像我们想象中的那样..
一直很努力的说服自己不要太在意，不要去在意..
可是..
我却做不到..
一句话，真的只要一句话..
就足以影响我一整天..
我到底是怎么了..
其实,自己心里很清楚的知道结果,但就偏偏要一头栽进去..
真的是傻傻的..
忽冷忽热..呵呵..
真的很不好受..
一下晴天,一下雨天..
嗯...阴晴不定让人容易生病..
我还能奢望什么?
我应该奢望什么?
感觉上,我等待的东西好像离我越来越远..
人嘛..总是喜欢自寻烦恼.
明明有那么多选择,但偏偏就要选那个离你好远好远,甚至不属于你的东西..
唉〜
想象跟现实真的根本一点也扯不上关系..
要是现实能像童话那么简单那该多好..

ώkeep on telling n remind mysev:
dun b sad even the whole world ignore u..Lord Daddy will always be there for you whenever u feel alone..He will sayang you all the time..😇ώ

when emoness came into my life...

my tears was drop down..out of my control..I try my best to control my tear not to drop down but I failed..
I dun care how others people think and look on me..I can't control their mind and even their mouth..
I'm so lazy to explain with them and I think that was not necessary..it is unnecessary for me to explain with those unimportant people and unimportant matter..
this was me..I won't care others feeling.i don't mind if you don't like me.u can just leave..
but...
how come u both keep blame on me and saying tat I'm wrong? I didn't do anything..I admit I'm wrong..not because of I give up the relationship.but just because of I'm not cruel enough and not mean enough.I was too soft hearted..that's y I get hurt again and again..
all I do is just to protect myself..am I wrong??

thx God..thx god for giving me such a good daddy..I'm really appreciate to have such a good daddy..
he is the only one who stand by my side n listen to me when all of the people were blaming on me..
daddy said: try to find a guy who love u more but not you love him more..daddy wants u to be happy..remember!! u're not alone..u still have daddy..
ya..my tears drop down again..
feel touch n warmth.
he even scare I will think much and suggested to hang out with me..
I really appreciate n feel grateful that I having such a good daddy..

I shouldn't wasted too much of time on the stupid relationship matter..it's not worth..u treat someone as the importance one but they might be not..

I'm Jessica.my dad's precious.
•the one who always so arrogant once upon a time•
•the one who live in her own world n always ignore the others once upon a time•
•the one who live with her own principle once upon a time•

I should be myself..
be tough Jessica..nothings gonna beat u up..as someone said:time is the best medicine to cure sadness n emoness..
so..let times tell the truth.
...its not the end of the world,life still goes on...

EmOing...

...when u give lots importance to someone in your life,you lose your importance in their life..

•it's sound so true and it is how I feel right now..u gain nth besides hurt when u expected more on something or someone..so,pls dun expected too much..yours mean yours.cant force..•

•AND I'm so sorry to tell that..I don't need any part-time people appear in my life,get lost pls if u're the one..thx..•

p/s:
again..I've to mention..for the one who owax stalk my blog.i'm not saying you.pls dun tink too much n syok sendiri there..thankyou~

-nO tiTle-

总会有人说你好，也会有人说你不好..
只要做人做事问心无愧，就不必执着于他人的评判..
不必一味讨好别人，那样使自己活得更累..
就算全世界都否定你，你也要相信自己..
你是活给自己看的，没有多少人能把你留在心上..
如果你讨厌我，我一点也不介意..
我活着不是为了取悦你..^^


*dun chase people; be u!!
Do your own thing n work hard..
The right people who belong in ur life will come to u,and stay..<3 *

27oct 2012

-wish to get mysev drunk..
so that I no need to tink too much and explained so much.-

I really don't mean to hurt anybody..
really don't wish to hurt anyone..
that's the reason why I remain silent and keep on saying that I need space and time.
but...
why no one can understand what I want?? I was really so tired and sick with my current life style..
everyday wearing a mask to face with people around me, wearing a fake smile on my face..
what the hell am I doing??
why I need to suffer all these??
why??
is not my fault..but then why everyone blamed on me??even my family..
I was hurt..really down and emo..
family are always the most important to me..but...
now even them also blamed on me..
I really don't know what the hell you had told them.they trust what you said..they even duno what's going on.they didn't even ask me what was happening.they listen to u and started to blame on me..
when I saw my bro status I was totally moody..I knw u had told him lot of things.all created by your ownsev and based on your own imagination..damn!!
why i need to face all these?!
why they rather believe in a person who doesn't has any relation v them?
gosh!!
ya!! u already success..
congrats to you as u already success to make my family stand at your side..

people were saying..juz follow your heart,but when the heart was broken into pieces which pieces shud I follow?!

keep on forcing n blaming..
I really going to insane soon..
my world was full of darkness again..
I really hate you!!
really really HATE YOU!!
and all I need to tell is: u can keep force me to stay by your side..but u can't force my heart..whatever gone is gone..
god will just give us 1chance..once the chance gone that's mean it is gone..there is no 2nd chance in your life.
pls..just let go..don't make yoursev suffer and don't make the others to suffer..
I'm still myself..
be my ownsev..
I'm single but not available..
not available for anyone and of course no longer available for YOU!!!


*my dear lord, I really need you right now..please~tell me what shud I do and lead me to the right way.*

Comfort

When your heart is sad and lonely,
And your friends seems far away,
Turn to HIM who is all holy,
And He'll drive your cares away.

When a dear one seems to fail you,
When for friendship true you long,
Confide in HIM who is all true,
And He'll right your every wrong.

Jesus' heart is your true refuge,
To HIM you can always flee,
Even when your hopes are sinking,
He will then a true friend be.

HE will soothe your lonely spirit,
HE will love and bless and say,
"Come to Me and I will comfort you, today and everyday."

_vague relation_

We'l never completely understand what love is or what hate is...
if we did, the world would be perfect.
I really wish you'd take time to read my posts just so you'd have an idea about how I really feel.
but on the others hand,i wish u won't see it. i wish to hide all the post from you to read,but lastly i didn't.

Sometimes remain silence is the best way to deal with problems, but sometimes it won't.
I scared you will walking far away from me, don't even want to bother me anymore..I really scared..
Maybe I hope too much. Maybe I dream too much and Maybe i really think to much.
But at least I won't give up until I've tried, 
And please don't keep blaming yourself or even felt guilty. Its not your fault actually.
So no need keep apologize or keep on saying sorry with me as i don't need it.
I know what i am doing and I won't regret anything.


-"Love like you've never been hurt," they say. Well, if you never get hurt, you'll never learn how to love.
-Never trust no one because at the end no one will be there for you, even yourself will turn against you.
-form does not differ from emptiness,emptiness does not differ from form.