miserable?! suffering?! struggling?!

life is always not as simple as u wish..
my current life was full with loneliness,emoness and miserable..
pretending that I'm fine n nothing in front of my family and even my friend..
tears drop down,out of my control when I was alone..
nobody knew that....
it was few days ago since we last chat..
I'm wrong.
I shouldn't came out v the post..
I should keep the relation in a vague state..
at least we can still keep In contact..
but now..
is over..its really over..
promises..!?
do u still remember what u have promise me before?!
u said I'm important to you..
u said I'm precious..
u said u will always accompany me.
u said u won't dont bother me..
u said it is a must for me to watch football match v u..
u said u will watch twilight breaking dawn II with me..
u said u scared I don't want to bother you..
u said u will take care of me n u wan me to do so...
u said u want me to be happy..
do u still rmb?!
are those promises still promises??
or it is just a void?!
I don't know, really don't know..
my mind was stuck at there..
my heart was struggling..
I don't know what to do..
how I wish we still like before..
we texting all the time when u are free..
call me up just to listen my voice before u went to sleep..
but now..all change!!
I know there are lots of thing troubling u..
and I know u're not going to share v me anymore..
all I can do now is just pray for you..
put you in my prayer..
and waiting for the day that I waiting for..
I really wish that the day will come..
besides praying I really duno wat else I can do..at least it could make me feel clam and feel better.......
may god bless...

错的人

微笑的背后又有谁能真正的了解悲伤？
其实一直以来都把自己掩饰的很好，
可能大家都会认为我真的没事..
但是...其实是相反的。
内心里的空虚，内心的悲伤到底有谁能正真的了解？
真正不开心的原因到底又有谁知道?
我应该告诉谁?
我能告诉谁?
以为喝醉了就能把所有的烦恼忘光..
醒了以后才发现更痛苦..
那种感觉真的很难受..

•••爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲，
太容易让自己沉沦，
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕，
我太笨明知道你是错的人，
明知道这不是缘分，
但是我还奋不顾身..
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨•••
这首歌就像一把刀直接刺进了我的心..
我能怎样？
我到底还能怎样？==＂

Life <3

Life's only travelled ONCE..
TODAY's MOMENT become TOMORROW's MEMORY...
Enjoy every moment no matter good or bad..
Because the GIFT of LIFE is LIFE itself.


Life challenges are not supposed to paralyse you, 
they're supposed to help you discover who you are...


Keep love in your heart...
A life without it is like those dead flowers in a sunless garden...

Life is like a sport...
Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose...
But whatever it is, the game always go on.


Life can only be understood backwards,
But it must be lived forwards. =)

7.11.2012

生命中没有什么是偶然的，
事情背后都有一双手在掌管；
生命中也没什么是必然的，
不同选择不同结果，
每个人都必须为自己的选择负上责任；
生命中也没什么是理所当然的，
快跑的未必会赢，
力大的未必得胜，
一切都只是在当时的机会。
但有件事，
我是确知的：
行在上帝心意之中，
一切都不是徒然，
也不是枉然的...

心淡

很多时候..
其实很多事情并不能像我们想象中的那样..
一直很努力的说服自己不要太在意，不要去在意..
可是..
我却做不到..
一句话，真的只要一句话..
就足以影响我一整天..
我到底是怎么了..
其实,自己心里很清楚的知道结果,但就偏偏要一头栽进去..
真的是傻傻的..
忽冷忽热..呵呵..
真的很不好受..
一下晴天,一下雨天..
嗯...阴晴不定让人容易生病..
我还能奢望什么?
我应该奢望什么?
感觉上,我等待的东西好像离我越来越远..
人嘛..总是喜欢自寻烦恼.
明明有那么多选择,但偏偏就要选那个离你好远好远,甚至不属于你的东西..
唉〜
想象跟现实真的根本一点也扯不上关系..
要是现实能像童话那么简单那该多好..

ώkeep on telling n remind mysev:
dun b sad even the whole world ignore u..Lord Daddy will always be there for you whenever u feel alone..He will sayang you all the time..😇ώ

when emoness came into my life...

my tears was drop down..out of my control..I try my best to control my tear not to drop down but I failed..
I dun care how others people think and look on me..I can't control their mind and even their mouth..
I'm so lazy to explain with them and I think that was not necessary..it is unnecessary for me to explain with those unimportant people and unimportant matter..
this was me..I won't care others feeling.i don't mind if you don't like me.u can just leave..
but...
how come u both keep blame on me and saying tat I'm wrong? I didn't do anything..I admit I'm wrong..not because of I give up the relationship.but just because of I'm not cruel enough and not mean enough.I was too soft hearted..that's y I get hurt again and again..
all I do is just to protect myself..am I wrong??

thx God..thx god for giving me such a good daddy..I'm really appreciate to have such a good daddy..
he is the only one who stand by my side n listen to me when all of the people were blaming on me..
daddy said: try to find a guy who love u more but not you love him more..daddy wants u to be happy..remember!! u're not alone..u still have daddy..
ya..my tears drop down again..
feel touch n warmth.
he even scare I will think much and suggested to hang out with me..
I really appreciate n feel grateful that I having such a good daddy..

I shouldn't wasted too much of time on the stupid relationship matter..it's not worth..u treat someone as the importance one but they might be not..

I'm Jessica.my dad's precious.
•the one who always so arrogant once upon a time•
•the one who live in her own world n always ignore the others once upon a time•
•the one who live with her own principle once upon a time•

I should be myself..
be tough Jessica..nothings gonna beat u up..as someone said:time is the best medicine to cure sadness n emoness..
so..let times tell the truth.
...its not the end of the world,life still goes on...

EmOing...

...when u give lots importance to someone in your life,you lose your importance in their life..

•it's sound so true and it is how I feel right now..u gain nth besides hurt when u expected more on something or someone..so,pls dun expected too much..yours mean yours.cant force..•

•AND I'm so sorry to tell that..I don't need any part-time people appear in my life,get lost pls if u're the one..thx..•

p/s:
again..I've to mention..for the one who owax stalk my blog.i'm not saying you.pls dun tink too much n syok sendiri there..thankyou~