好想好好大睡一场…

最近真的很累很累…

身体上的累，心灵上的累再加上精神上的累…

呼～

简直不是开玩笑的…

其实还蛮佩服自己的,竟然还能撑到那么久…

也蛮怀疑自己到底能撑到什么时候?

有时候真的好累好累…

感觉快要撑不下了,但却硬撑着,死撑…

甚至有时候累到会在想：如果我什么都不是? 如果我不是我,如果我什么都没有。那该多好…什么都不用烦,不用担心,不用心淡…

有些东西,当你没有的时候可能会觉得很想得到…没有的时候可能会觉得很空虚…

可是我想说,当你真正拥有时你必须顾虑很多很多,你必须担心这个担心那个…

心里好多东西压着,却不知从何说起…

最近更是糟糕…

告诉自己不去理会,眼不见为净…

我想我做到了…甚至不会去理会…你越是在乎,你就越没有价值!就会变的可有可无…

庆幸的是在我需要找人倾诉的时候总是会有那么一个他会及时的出现…

可悲的却是……

有时候我真的很怀疑…

随着时间一天一天的过,一天一天的长大…

才发觉有些东西你真的必须考虑好好,想清楚才做决定…

不然真的会后悔…

我知道自己…

我不喜欢失败的感觉，不论是功课,友情还是爱情…

觉得自己没有能力经营或兼顾好我真的会选择一开始就放弃…

好过到最后失败了…那种感觉真的很恐怖…

开始为自己的未来做打算…

以后的日子应该怎么走应该怎么做?

心里也已经有数…

大家都说：女孩子太过强悍总是不惹人喜欢…

也许吧…

我有自己的想法,靠自己总是比靠别人来得好…

毕竟自己是过来人…

可以的话我也想当个小女人啊…

谁不想能天天在自己爱人身边撒撒娇,做个小鸟依人的小女人?

谁不想随时随地有个肩膀靠?

可是就是过不了心里那关…

总是担心被伤害…

算了…

反正我也不在乎别人怎么说怎么看…

老实说我也没有必要去讨好那些不重要的人…我觉得根本没有那种必要…

毕竟自己也不喜欢随便乱搭，到处乱交朋友…

我还是我…

When u give lots important to someone,you lose yours importance in their life..

It is true..

So start from now I will be the one that I used to be..

Chill =)

Imperfection

Life won't be as easy as what you think..

It also won't be as smooth as what you expect..

Do you ever tried this before!??

When u plan something so hard and maybe you felt it was so perfect for you and you are really excited and look forward for it..at the end there is something not really urgent for you, not really in your concern but because of responsibility you just cant ignore it, reject it and avoid it..ya..it ruined my whole planing..

Do u ever tried this before?? and do you know what's that feeling??

Bloody hell..

I thought it will be the perfect 1... Gods know!??

now I've to replan again...

And everything is too late!!!!!

Expectation ended up with disappointed..

Guess the one will have such feeling too..

Argh..I'm really just so sorry for the imperfection..it really out of my expectation..

I know it means lot to my somebody but what to do?!!!

Beside that sorry n guilty I really don't know what should I do..

It totally mess me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why so coincidence?!!!!!!!

Arghhhhh..wish to bang wall now... T.T

💔

不是不满足..

更不是不知足..

我很珍惜我所拥有的..

我很感恩老天的恩典..

谢谢他把你带到我身边...

可是..这一夜..

心在滴血..

我不是他它她们

请不要把我跟他它她们混为一谈..

也许不是你的问题..

而是我根本还在框框外..

根本挤不进

算了..

反正我也不喜欢勉强

是我的就是我的

不是我的再怎么样还是会跑掉..

这一夜,真的很痛

原来..

是我太高估我自己了

原来....

是我把自己想的太重要了

失望

Tragedy

Receive a breaking news from cousin sister..

Her father in law was one of the victim of the genting tragedy...

Suddenly there is like something hit on my head, mind went blank for few seconds..ya..when the time you get the news that someone you know was kill in an accident..could you just imagine how was the feeling??!! Although we just meet for only once..

May your soul could rest in peace uncle, my deepest condolence to my cousin sis and her mother in law..

Lets pray for the tragedy,n may those victims could rest in peace..

Moral of the above incident: do appreciate whatever you have now.. Life is fragile, human are just too tiny.. We can't predict what is going to happen on the next seconds..so, don't let yourself have the chance to regret...

By the way..I do believe in god..I always believe that everything happen for a reason..god has arrange everything in everyone's life..

#faith#hope#love

Je n'aime pas vraiment vous

Another day gone.

Few days didn't updated my blog..is time to add in something new =)

Well,this blog is all about my own perspective..I just wrote out whatever in my mind..get out from this if u doesn't like it..

Yea.. I admit I really just doesn't like both of u..ya..just both of u..

As stated in bible,lord said " love all the people around u including your enemies..

I did it, I really did it..but except u both..

I just can't really accept you both..

Dislike means dislike..

No matter who u are?How close you are with the people who close to me, or what u did..

Once I set my own mindset,tats my final decision and I'm not going to change it anymore..

Well,maybe u can said tat I'm just too stingy..whatever..I wun care how others think about me..it won't affect me at all..

What I'm going to tell is:sorry you are not eligible to become my friend although you are someone best friend..it doesn't means that I should treated u as my best friend!! NO!! It's impossible..

Just stay away from me and get out of my life..you make me eyesore..

I know you will see this..

Always stalk n spread like a busybody.

Sometime I was wondering are you just too free? Nothing to do?! I just cant really understand why there is such a busybody person around me?! Read my blog and tell others about it..well,I think I should declare something here..I don't ever need anyone help me to "promote" whatever in my blog..I'm not like others blogger..my blog is just a space for me to scream out whatever hide inside my deepest heart..it is a place for me to record down my own feeling or so called a secret place..the one who wish to know more about me will surf it themself.so,thanks for you busybodyness 

And please be cooperation..merçi

Last but not least..

Better stay away from me..

I will never show my pretty nice face towards you if forced to having meals with you...

This is real; this is me...

I'm not a backstaber..so whatever I doesn't like it, I will just scream it out, no offense n please don't treated me as a weirdos..everyone has their own temper..

I will respect you only if you respect me.. =)

有时候

有时候..

喜欢一个人..

静静的思考我的未来..

有时候..

喜欢有人陪..

有时候..

就是喜欢不被打扰..

有时候..

却喜欢热热闹闹..

有时候..

会突然不想说话..

没有原因..

有时候却一直说个不停..

有时候..

很善良..

有时候..

比魔鬼还要可怕..

有时候..

很爱玩..

有时候..

却认真到让人害怕..

有时候..

笑脸迎人..

有时候..

脸黑到比火炭还黑..

有时候..

爱到要生要死..

有时候..

突然就觉得很讨厌..

有时候...

真想一巴一巴的去巴那些讨厌的人..

有时候..

却选择原谅敌人..

有时候..

不是不想说,而是希望能有个懂我的人..

不需要多说多问,就知道我要什么我想什么..

有时候..

觉得说了倒不如不说..

因为说了等于白说..

有时候..

会突然觉得很累很累..

好想睡上三天三夜..

有时候..

会觉得自己放得太多..

到头来结果还是一样..悲剧..

有时候..

会有冲动..

冷静以后想想其实自己不应该有那种想法...

唉〜

我就是那么...

糟糕...

突然又有那种很讨厌的感觉...

真的很讨厌啊!!!!!!!!!!!