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把他忘记

重复告诉自己…
熟悉不再熟悉
但清晰却还是一样清晰…

去吧…
隨着右手旋律
忘了左手的委屈
就算沒伴奏也可以继续

前进,找寻新的记忆和空气
放晴,等雨说放弃

在有眼泪的雨里
哪里都是你
擦干是否就看不见你
脑海里 你的笑容太徹底
徹底把我囚禁在你的呼吸
我跟着哭泣

在有眼泪的雨里
哪里都是你
抱紧你是我逃离的距离
太拥挤,我在你的世界里
看不清楚的是你还是自己
我们都在等雨停

今天这篇打了很久…

打了又删,删了又打…结果最后还是选择用华文来写…

其实很多时候,很多事情并不是理所当然…

当然我知道每个人都有自己的烦恼和压力,总是希望在自己最无助的时候能有人安慰有人疼…

很抱歉,我没办法是那个能在第一时间给你安慰的人…

可能在你最需要安慰的时候,给予你安慰和关怀的那个人并不是我…

这种感觉,我比谁都清楚,都能感受到…

虽然脸上总是带着笑容,事实上我的压力比谁都大,烦恼比任何人来的多…

工作上的压力几乎压得我喘不过气来,虽然只是实习生,但却背负着QS的工作压力…

工地的安全措施,工作进度,保龄球场和starbucks的建筑工程,sub-con的claim…还有很多很多…手头上的工作必须在下个星期五前都赶完…

这是一种责任,人家那么信任我,把那么重大的任务交给了我,我就有必要把它做好…这是我的原则…

可能有人会说：才拿那三百块,做到像牛这样…傻得…

对,虽然只是三百,但我却学了很多很多…我很清楚自己要什么,虽然嘴巴会碎碎念,但却做的心甘情愿…

很快很快,半年的实习生涯就要结束了…但压力却有增无减…烦恼着教授为什么没来做visitation..烦恼着报告要怎么写…很多事必须在十二月以前通通赶完…

本来有的假期,都被逼取消…

明天还得乖乖回去做工…

很多时候不是不想说,只是觉得说了又如何?事情还不是一样…到最后问题还是一样回到了自己的身上…所以还是选择保持沉默…

毕竟自己也不想成为别人的负担…

每个人都有自己的问题…

在埋怨之前,为何不想想为什么…

不是什么事都是理所当然…

还是那句：成熟稳重是必然的,思想真的很重要…性格和理念不同有时真的很难沟通…

每个人都要为自己的选择负责任…

既然当初已经选择了就必须一心一意而不是因为的不到温暖而投进别人的怀里…

外面的诱惑太多…谁能保证自己不会被诱拐去?看到太多太多的例子…只能说一切都是在于自己…

在任何场合做任何事说任何话之前请想想爱你那个人的感受…

保持沉默是我一贯的作风…

必要时我是会选择眼不见为净…

无题

今天只有一句…

突然觉得思想很重要…

成熟稳重是必然的…

理念不同有时候真的很难沟通…

性格不同更是糟糕…

很好!!

今天的我又在转牛角尖了…

Wahahaha...

Twilight

Does fairy tale exist in this reality world??

Hmm..maybe some will said it is impossible.. 

But I've got a fairy tale love story once upon a time..

Well..let the bygone be the bygone..

Reading my twilight novel while having my tea-time..

It was the only novel that I read and it was the only movie that I love the most..

I love Robert pattinson without any reason.. I love his character in twilight..

Edward; the vampire,can do and sacrifice everything for Bella. He can read people's mind, but fate gave him chance to understand Bella, because he can't read her mind, the only one! Both of them came from a totally different space..human and vampire..They pass through so many obstacle, sacrifice for each other, just to be together. 

Even it was just a story, but it touched me..Really touch and amazing story. 

Does it happens in real life??!!

Sometime something just against us, played us, to make us tougher. We must have belief, and trust. I always believe that, everything happened for a reason..Time will tells us everything. 

Time has brought your heart to me..

I'm back, October babyyy

It has been quite a long time didn't updated my blog...

Kinda lazy and kinda bored..

October..

Ma favorite month..

Simply love this month so much because I'm October babyyy...

1 n half months to go before my internship going to end..

Getting busier as I need to prepare my industrial training report n need to summarize out my daily task...

Time past time

Day past day

Sometime I really felt exhausted..

Few more days and I will turn to become 23..omg!!!! Getting older n older.. 

Giving myself 3 years time..

Set my own goal and aim..

Hopes that I could achieve it within this 3 years..

Believe in ursev...

Give some faith to yourself..

Focus on it..

Put some effort on it..

Sure you can do it..!!

Strengthen me and lead me my lord..

距离越来越远

感觉越来越淡

想问从前的感觉去了哪里?

是我的问题吗?

怎么感觉不到?

总是觉得你变了…

感觉越来遥远

感觉自己越来越不重要

感觉不再像从前

是我的问题吗?

心渐渐变冷渐渐变淡

不知道什么时候开始,想好好跟你讲话已经变成一种很奢侈的要求…

突然觉得很讽刺,有时候需要人陪的时候那个人总不是你…

一直等一直等…

一直等…

是自己越来越不被重视了吗…

有时候在想,既然自己都那么不被重视了那我还那么在意干嘛?

自讨没趣?

有些时候…潜意识里的我真的很在意,拜托我没有你想象中的大方…可是却必须装的很大方很不在意…

真的很累…

那种感觉是以前从来都不会有的,从来都不用去担心的…

以前的踏实感全部都没有了…

对…我知道不是每个人都一样…

当被问到那个问题时我真的不懂要怎样回答…

只能说：每个人都有自己的自由啊,我可以怎样?我做好自己的本分就好啊…

多么可笑…

我真的很累…

有时候真的就想算了当做什么都看不见,自己那么在意一直转牛角尖又怎样? 

一直在强调的东西他也许根本就不懂…

我要的其实很简单…

可是你真的懂吗?

最基本的都给不了我还能奢望什么?

突然觉得那个属于两个人的未来变得好遥远…

我也真的很懒惰一直要重复…

真的很累…

是我错了吗?

突然对自己超没有信心…

我觉得我会……

我真的觉得自己会……

如果有一天我突然变得很冷漠请不要感到讶异……

因为…我真的累了…

October..ma favorite month

Yea~ is October...

A month that I love the most..

1st day of oct..

Same as usual..busying for my work..progress claim, work progress chart, measurement, quotation, site valuation and so so so on..

Hu~ 2 more months to go and luckily I didn't promise my contract manager , mr.vincent, the big liar to extend my internship..

Work load getting heavy and heavier but I did enjoy my work so much..

I choose the course that I'm interested with it and so do my job.. Work as interest but not work as a 'work'..

Sound complicated right??

Well~ ignore what I'm saying, I'm always talking something that others hard to understand.. XP

2 more months to go before my holidays come..

Having western cuisine as my lunch just now..lunch treated by Mr.Jimmy, reinforced bar's supplier..

Láfité.. The restaurant name...

A France theme restaurant..

Love the environment ,high classes surround with some soft classic music, romantic environment,all the staff are so kind and friendly and of course the price was very high as well..

But it is worth..as the cuisine is quite special and tasty..

Hmm..it was the best western cuisine in the town..

Thanks mr.jimmy for the expensive lunch..(around rm300 for just 3 of us)..

Having a great meal and great time with them.. 

Laying on my lovely purple bed...

Zzz...zzz...zzzz...zzz...

Turn on my sleeping mode..

Zzz...zzzz...zzz...zzz...

Zzz...zzz...zzz..

Zzz...zzz...

Zzz

Good nite world❤️

#throwback

Le fish n chip, scallop, smoke duck salad, grill chicken chop, spaghetti , salmon and dessert ...special thanks to mr.jimmy =)