认真地思考了一整晚..

认真的想了又想..

原来..

我错了...

自大到以为自己有那种本事..

可笑.

我竟然奢望那种根本不可能的事..

还以为已经不一样了..

结果..原来还是一样..

每一次当我想跨出那一步时却...

我可以后悔吗?

如果时间重来还会一样吗?

想了整晚终于有答案了..

请记住..

我可以很好也可以变得很快很快...

24.6.13

The pain was killing me..

Again..the consequence of consume too much of cold drinks!! ><"

Those memories before came across my mind..

The one who used to help me applied medicated oil when the pain visiting me..

But now...

Wat I can do is just rolling in my bed..

God damn!! Imma really in pain!!

I knew I shouldn't think bek those old past history..but it really came across my mind by this moment..

Not I doesn't appreciate but it doesn't worth at all..

I just can't stand everything..

One thing I should declare is I doesn't regret with my decision..at least now I really didn't felt it!!

=>

A word has brighten up my day..

As usual.. Just like before ..

This is the only things that it doesn't change..

It cheers me during the boring time..

Thank you..

And Thx god for everything..

=)

自寻烦恼

沉默并不代表接受..

很多时候选择不说出来是因为不想破坏气氛..

有时候自己会在想,我到底算什么??

你到底把我当成什么??

不去理会反而变本加厉..

这是我自找的吗?

可能吧..毕竟还是自己的选择,怨不得..

也许对你来说这算不了什么...

对..其实真的没什么..

只是一次又一次的没顾虑我的感受,.

我失控了...

觉得我根本算不了什么,凭什么?我凭什么??

就觉得麻烦收敛收敛下,顾虑下我的感受好吗? 我虽然表面冷血但还是有感觉的..

就像之前说过的：如果你给我的跟给别人是一样的那我宁愿不要..我不是别人,我不喜欢跟别人分享我的东西..如果你要把自己跟别人分享,那很抱歉,我只能说对不起,我并不想要了...

算了...

没有必要勉强

该来的还是会来要走的强留也留不住..

今天失控了，对不起..

当意识到有可能受到伤害时,我还是会选择自我保护自己..

自己也知道最疼自己,最爱自己,最不会伤害自己的还是天父和家人...

我...不是一个人..