-nO tiTle-

总会有人说你好，也会有人说你不好..
只要做人做事问心无愧，就不必执着于他人的评判..
不必一味讨好别人，那样使自己活得更累..
就算全世界都否定你，你也要相信自己..
你是活给自己看的，没有多少人能把你留在心上..
如果你讨厌我，我一点也不介意..
我活着不是为了取悦你..^^


*dun chase people; be u!!
Do your own thing n work hard..
The right people who belong in ur life will come to u,and stay..<3 *

27oct 2012

-wish to get mysev drunk..
so that I no need to tink too much and explained so much.-

I really don't mean to hurt anybody..
really don't wish to hurt anyone..
that's the reason why I remain silent and keep on saying that I need space and time.
but...
why no one can understand what I want?? I was really so tired and sick with my current life style..
everyday wearing a mask to face with people around me, wearing a fake smile on my face..
what the hell am I doing??
why I need to suffer all these??
why??
is not my fault..but then why everyone blamed on me??even my family..
I was hurt..really down and emo..
family are always the most important to me..but...
now even them also blamed on me..
I really don't know what the hell you had told them.they trust what you said..they even duno what's going on.they didn't even ask me what was happening.they listen to u and started to blame on me..
when I saw my bro status I was totally moody..I knw u had told him lot of things.all created by your ownsev and based on your own imagination..damn!!
why i need to face all these?!
why they rather believe in a person who doesn't has any relation v them?
gosh!!
ya!! u already success..
congrats to you as u already success to make my family stand at your side..

people were saying..juz follow your heart,but when the heart was broken into pieces which pieces shud I follow?!

keep on forcing n blaming..
I really going to insane soon..
my world was full of darkness again..
I really hate you!!
really really HATE YOU!!
and all I need to tell is: u can keep force me to stay by your side..but u can't force my heart..whatever gone is gone..
god will just give us 1chance..once the chance gone that's mean it is gone..there is no 2nd chance in your life.
pls..just let go..don't make yoursev suffer and don't make the others to suffer..
I'm still myself..
be my ownsev..
I'm single but not available..
not available for anyone and of course no longer available for YOU!!!


*my dear lord, I really need you right now..please~tell me what shud I do and lead me to the right way.*

Comfort

When your heart is sad and lonely,
And your friends seems far away,
Turn to HIM who is all holy,
And He'll drive your cares away.

When a dear one seems to fail you,
When for friendship true you long,
Confide in HIM who is all true,
And He'll right your every wrong.

Jesus' heart is your true refuge,
To HIM you can always flee,
Even when your hopes are sinking,
He will then a true friend be.

HE will soothe your lonely spirit,
HE will love and bless and say,
"Come to Me and I will comfort you, today and everyday."

_vague relation_

We'l never completely understand what love is or what hate is...
if we did, the world would be perfect.
I really wish you'd take time to read my posts just so you'd have an idea about how I really feel.
but on the others hand,i wish u won't see it. i wish to hide all the post from you to read,but lastly i didn't.

Sometimes remain silence is the best way to deal with problems, but sometimes it won't.
I scared you will walking far away from me, don't even want to bother me anymore..I really scared..
Maybe I hope too much. Maybe I dream too much and Maybe i really think to much.
But at least I won't give up until I've tried, 
And please don't keep blaming yourself or even felt guilty. Its not your fault actually.
So no need keep apologize or keep on saying sorry with me as i don't need it.
I know what i am doing and I won't regret anything.


-"Love like you've never been hurt," they say. Well, if you never get hurt, you'll never learn how to love.
-Never trust no one because at the end no one will be there for you, even yourself will turn against you.
-form does not differ from emptiness,emptiness does not differ from form. 

心魔

一个看不到 摸不着
却能左右一个人的思绪
我只能说：心魔,你真可怕..

可是...'你'更加可怕..
我..真的很累很累，但为什么你不能放过我呢?
是我的表达方式有问题吗?
为什么你好像不明白我说的话?
我..不想伤害任何人..
但总不能因为这样伤害自己吧?!
问题，它其实一直都存在..
我真的不想在折磨自己..
我真的很累很累..
感觉不对,我有试着找回试着挽回.
可是...我失败了..
我不想再戴着面具面对..
我不想再戴着面具过日子..
我更不想明明心里不高兴,却假装面带微笑来面对你.
这的确是非常痛苦的事.
我承认.我也没有好到哪里去.
我也不是十全十美.
我试着包容过，体谅过.
但...我也只能说：一个人的包容心再大总有一天都是会满的..
我只想一个人静一静。过着一个人的生活.
这很难理解吗?!
我做的还不够明显?
还是讲的不够白?
渐渐开始觉得很烦.
我承认我是不成熟,我真的承认..
也许分开一段时间对大家都好..
继续下去只会让人越受伤...
我真的很累啊，放过我吧~
我只想简简单单的过完我的大学生涯，毕竟读书才是我现在最应该做的事.
我有自己的目标，自己的理想..
我更不想让父母失望..
放下未必是件坏事
死缠未必是件好事
我只想说放手吧,前方其实有更多事等着你去做...
烦啊!!!!!!😫😫😫😫😩😩😩
*请对号入座，谢谢*

-safe-

hard to find the way to get through,
its a tragedy..
pulling at me like the star do,you're like gravity..
even if the wind blows,it makes it hard to believe..
how you gonna love?
how you gonna feel?
how you gonna live your life,like the dream u have is real?
if u lost ur way, I'll keep u safe,we'll open up all the world inside,see it come alive tonight,I will keep u safe.
doesn't even matter to u to see wat I can see.
I'm crawling on the floor to reach u,
I'm wreck u see..
when you're far from home now,makes it hard to believe.
we all fall down..
we all feel down..
cause rainy days n summer highs..
the more we pray;the more we feel alive.....

BFF <3

I really can't rmb when is the last time we having our gathering..
yea~I'm really happy n enjoy it very much with them-my BFF..
with no any worries
with no any sadness
with no any gaps
we talk
we chat
we laugh
we share
we care...
I do not need to pretend myself infront of them..
I've tired with putting myself with a mask..
is really tired..

I do appreciate the moment with them..
I smile..is real n true smile.n it was from the bottom of my heart..
the friendship between us were never change..[although I'm the one who owax ffk ==']
I ❤ u guys••best friend forever••
•weijian•
•Ziyin•
•min•
•chong xiang•
•Rex•
•hernn•
•chai•
u guys had brighten up my day..tengiu~~<3

好累好累

突然觉得世界充满了黑暗..
成绩只是其中一小部分吧..
压抑已久的心绪再也隐藏不住..
泪水决堤了..
我需要一个肩膀，一个能让我依靠的肩膀..
我累了..
真的好累好累..