Is in hell

Don't really understand why...

Just simply questioned it..

Without any offense..

And what the answer I get is really out of my expectation..

The 1st time I felt so lost..

Really wondering...

Is that worth??

I know my eye sight condition...

Is getting weaker and weaker..

I knew that I shouldn't cry anymore as it might make it worst..

But...it really out of my control..

Wake up in the early morning, and I found out everything was blurred..

By that moment I was afraid..

But I rather keep it myself..

Last night, the worst night..

I done something that really ridiculous..

I... Ya...I think I'm insane..!!

I shouldn't be like this..

Is not me!!!

Wake up and think back, it seems to be so silly and such childish.

What am I doing?

What I've done??!!!

You know what is the most important to you. You shouldn't harm yourself..

In this world, all are hypocrisy.. 

No one will treat u with their true heart except ur family and ur ownself..

Don't expect too much from others, it's better to love ursev more instead of hoping other to love you..

I get the lesson..

The worst time I ever had..

Anyway, thanks for hurting..u make me stronger and finally realize who are the best in my life...

And finally I knew that I don't know how to appreciate my life.

I give up those old days life and now yea, I knew I shouldn't complain about it..

I deserved it..

As usual.. I am still dreaming and waiting for it..I believe it will exist someday..

Hopefully..

Depressed and fed up with those hell days.. 

I need some motivation!!! Final is around the corner!! Find back ur fighting spirit.. Don't let other things defeat u!! 

Put aside!!

U should know which one will stick wv u forever n ever...

Alone so what?? I can walk through the tough period..I believe..

Positive mindset needed!!!!

领悟

生活中总是会出现一些犯贱的人,不断的影响你的思绪和生活作息…

当然在那杀那,怒火中烧…

冷静下来想想,其实也没那个必要…

偶然看到了他发的一篇贴文,

“主说：爱你身边所有的人包括你的敌人”

对啊,以前的我总坚持着这个信念来对身旁的每一个人,日子也过得很开心…

因为心里根本就没有恨…

自己也在懊恼着到底从什么时候开始,自己变得那么的糟糕?那么的无知?甚至那么的没有涵养?

什么时候开始自己变的那么小心眼?那么容易嫉妒,那么随便的就讨厌甚至恨一个人?

自己清楚明白很多时候其实就是一个圈套,别人故意设下陷阱,但就是因为自己的愚蠢而一次又一次的中了计…

已经多久没让自己的心那么的平静过…

已经多久没打开bible,一字一句的读进脑?

回想起那段煎熬的日子,不也是它指引我做人的道理,不也是它给我希望吗?

我必须找回以前的自己,做回以前的自己…无需去理会那些不相干的人,事,物…

想说的几个月前已说了,不该做的也做了…

只希望不再有任何外来的压力影响自己…

会珍惜的就请留下,不然就请离开我的视线,不要干扰我平静的生活,也不要影响我的人格…

请不要一次又一次的做出一些伤害我的事,不要糟蹋了我一次又一次的原谅更不要一次又一次让我做出一些自己也觉得不可思议的事情…

一向来都不喜欢争争抢抢,既然你们那么喜欢那姐姐就当做善事…

因为姐姐不喜欢跟别人分享属于自己的一切…

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•love one another include ur enemy•

•never hate•

This is the two main element I should keep on holding.. Thanks god for the guide and now I know how and what should I do.. =)

Thanks god for the grace..

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