慵懒的星期天

今天的心情有点奇特…

星期天…非常慵懒的一天…

没有动力,只想懒洋洋的躺在床上滚来滚去…

突然有股很强的动力,让我爬起身,走到钢琴前坐了下来…

多久没弹琴了?自己也忘了…

原来自己是会弹琴的…

坐在钢琴前,看着那八十八个黑白琴键,脑力一片空白…

突然不知道要弹什么曲子…

心里想着是要贝多芬?还是萧邦?

手在琴键上开始慢慢的弹着…

但弹出来的却是熟悉的曲子…

不是贝多芬，更不是萧邦的曲…

而是周董的不能说的秘密…

一边弹一边哼…

原来,我还记得这首歌的普…

那是以前很喜欢的一首曲…

也是第一次自己认认真真的把一首曲学好…

”你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远

又何必去改变已错过的时间

你用你的指尖阻止我说再见

想像你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远

或许命运的签只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋这一季的秋天

飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片要我怎么捡”

是啦是啦,我知道自己没有很温柔,也不是很有气质…这叫深藏不露嘛…哈哈哈😜

Penang trip - 10/12/13 to 12/12/13

Having 3 days 2 night trips with gang of love peeps to Penang island..

Hmm..quite fun but it is really an exhausted trip..

Here is the summaries of the trips..

10/12/2013

•Reach lcct at around 6 in the morning with Belinda and Vanessa..waiting others at MacDonald.. Hu~~ is kinda long long time didn't saw both of them..aww~~love them so muchh..chit chat and gossip over ther while waiting for others..

•our flight boarding on 735am and it arrive at Penang international airport at 815am which 15 minutes earlier than as scheduled.. After that, we departed to out hotel for check in..

• had visited to Penang hill,kek lok si and gurney drive. We play we laugh and we chat all the way..walking all day long and I can felt that my leg is no longer belongs to me anymore.. T.T

•food hunted: Penang white curry, Penang char keow teow, Penang asam laksa, ikan bakar, carrot cake, rojak,steam chicken n fried oyster..

** incidents of the day - bel has lost her phone during the way to hotel..everyone was nervous n worried because her ic was put inside her phone casing.. Salute for Steve job for the great design..we had successfully track her iPhone n get it back safely.. Thanks god, praise The Lord..

11/12/13

• as scheduled, we had visited to Penang national park.. It was my 1st time to take part in jungle tracking.. Was a great experience.. Gang of QS walk inside jungle for not less than 4000m in 3 and half hours time and get out from the so called jungle by speed boat with just less than 20minutes.. Everyone was tired like hell..but it is worth..great and nice experience for everyone.. Will go again,I promise myself..

• after that, we went to batu ferringi to enjoy sunset.. Kinda romantic feeling and it makes me missing my babe so badly.. The scene was so beautiful and I was attracted by the view. I love natur3 and seaside..❤️❤️❤️

•back to Georgetown n went to enjoy Christmas festive mood..

•food hunt: wan tan mee, char kuew teow, dim sum, seafood, laksa,pancake 

** incidents of the day: bel falls sick!! Omg!!

12/12/13

•last day of the trip..as scheduled we went to chew jetty and walk around over there for exploring the food and also street art..walking all the way and sweat like hell..

•back to hotel and depart to airport.. Boardind time 1845pm..

•reach kl at around 1940pm..

•food hunt: Penang local food, cafe, road side roti bakar...

Nice and memorable trip..look forward for the next stop for us.. =)

Belinda, Jessica, Mayling and Vanessa taking photo with street art..

Map for Penang national park..

In national park

After jungle tracking for not less than 4000m..finally we reach here..!! Ya..uphill downhill just to visit this place!!!

I'm the margician..^^

Bye bye Penang..take care everyone..see u guys next year in UTAR.. Bel!!! We will miss u..

Arrived!!!! The end of our Penang trip..

🎶🎶

把他忘记

重复告诉自己…
熟悉不再熟悉
但清晰却还是一样清晰…

去吧…
隨着右手旋律
忘了左手的委屈
就算沒伴奏也可以继续

前进,找寻新的记忆和空气
放晴,等雨说放弃

在有眼泪的雨里
哪里都是你
擦干是否就看不见你
脑海里 你的笑容太徹底
徹底把我囚禁在你的呼吸
我跟着哭泣

在有眼泪的雨里
哪里都是你
抱紧你是我逃离的距离
太拥挤,我在你的世界里
看不清楚的是你还是自己
我们都在等雨停

今天这篇打了很久…

打了又删,删了又打…结果最后还是选择用华文来写…

其实很多时候,很多事情并不是理所当然…

当然我知道每个人都有自己的烦恼和压力,总是希望在自己最无助的时候能有人安慰有人疼…

很抱歉,我没办法是那个能在第一时间给你安慰的人…

可能在你最需要安慰的时候,给予你安慰和关怀的那个人并不是我…

这种感觉,我比谁都清楚,都能感受到…

虽然脸上总是带着笑容,事实上我的压力比谁都大,烦恼比任何人来的多…

工作上的压力几乎压得我喘不过气来,虽然只是实习生,但却背负着QS的工作压力…

工地的安全措施,工作进度,保龄球场和starbucks的建筑工程,sub-con的claim…还有很多很多…手头上的工作必须在下个星期五前都赶完…

这是一种责任,人家那么信任我,把那么重大的任务交给了我,我就有必要把它做好…这是我的原则…

可能有人会说：才拿那三百块,做到像牛这样…傻得…

对,虽然只是三百,但我却学了很多很多…我很清楚自己要什么,虽然嘴巴会碎碎念,但却做的心甘情愿…

很快很快,半年的实习生涯就要结束了…但压力却有增无减…烦恼着教授为什么没来做visitation..烦恼着报告要怎么写…很多事必须在十二月以前通通赶完…

本来有的假期,都被逼取消…

明天还得乖乖回去做工…

很多时候不是不想说,只是觉得说了又如何?事情还不是一样…到最后问题还是一样回到了自己的身上…所以还是选择保持沉默…

毕竟自己也不想成为别人的负担…

每个人都有自己的问题…

在埋怨之前,为何不想想为什么…

不是什么事都是理所当然…

还是那句：成熟稳重是必然的,思想真的很重要…性格和理念不同有时真的很难沟通…

每个人都要为自己的选择负责任…

既然当初已经选择了就必须一心一意而不是因为的不到温暖而投进别人的怀里…

外面的诱惑太多…谁能保证自己不会被诱拐去?看到太多太多的例子…只能说一切都是在于自己…

在任何场合做任何事说任何话之前请想想爱你那个人的感受…

保持沉默是我一贯的作风…

必要时我是会选择眼不见为净…

无题

今天只有一句…

突然觉得思想很重要…

成熟稳重是必然的…

理念不同有时候真的很难沟通…

性格不同更是糟糕…

很好!!

今天的我又在转牛角尖了…

Wahahaha...

Twilight

Does fairy tale exist in this reality world??

Hmm..maybe some will said it is impossible.. 

But I've got a fairy tale love story once upon a time..

Well..let the bygone be the bygone..

Reading my twilight novel while having my tea-time..

It was the only novel that I read and it was the only movie that I love the most..

I love Robert pattinson without any reason.. I love his character in twilight..

Edward; the vampire,can do and sacrifice everything for Bella. He can read people's mind, but fate gave him chance to understand Bella, because he can't read her mind, the only one! Both of them came from a totally different space..human and vampire..They pass through so many obstacle, sacrifice for each other, just to be together. 

Even it was just a story, but it touched me..Really touch and amazing story. 

Does it happens in real life??!!

Sometime something just against us, played us, to make us tougher. We must have belief, and trust. I always believe that, everything happened for a reason..Time will tells us everything. 

Time has brought your heart to me..

I'm back, October babyyy

It has been quite a long time didn't updated my blog...

Kinda lazy and kinda bored..

October..

Ma favorite month..

Simply love this month so much because I'm October babyyy...

1 n half months to go before my internship going to end..

Getting busier as I need to prepare my industrial training report n need to summarize out my daily task...

Time past time

Day past day

Sometime I really felt exhausted..

Few more days and I will turn to become 23..omg!!!! Getting older n older.. 

Giving myself 3 years time..

Set my own goal and aim..

Hopes that I could achieve it within this 3 years..

Believe in ursev...

Give some faith to yourself..

Focus on it..

Put some effort on it..

Sure you can do it..!!

Strengthen me and lead me my lord..

距离越来越远

感觉越来越淡

想问从前的感觉去了哪里?

是我的问题吗?

怎么感觉不到?

总是觉得你变了…

感觉越来遥远

感觉自己越来越不重要

感觉不再像从前

是我的问题吗?

心渐渐变冷渐渐变淡

不知道什么时候开始,想好好跟你讲话已经变成一种很奢侈的要求…

突然觉得很讽刺,有时候需要人陪的时候那个人总不是你…

一直等一直等…

一直等…

是自己越来越不被重视了吗…

有时候在想,既然自己都那么不被重视了那我还那么在意干嘛?

自讨没趣?

有些时候…潜意识里的我真的很在意,拜托我没有你想象中的大方…可是却必须装的很大方很不在意…

真的很累…

那种感觉是以前从来都不会有的,从来都不用去担心的…

以前的踏实感全部都没有了…

对…我知道不是每个人都一样…

当被问到那个问题时我真的不懂要怎样回答…

只能说：每个人都有自己的自由啊,我可以怎样?我做好自己的本分就好啊…

多么可笑…

我真的很累…

有时候真的就想算了当做什么都看不见,自己那么在意一直转牛角尖又怎样? 

一直在强调的东西他也许根本就不懂…

我要的其实很简单…

可是你真的懂吗?

最基本的都给不了我还能奢望什么?

突然觉得那个属于两个人的未来变得好遥远…

我也真的很懒惰一直要重复…

真的很累…

是我错了吗?

突然对自己超没有信心…

我觉得我会……

我真的觉得自己会……

如果有一天我突然变得很冷漠请不要感到讶异……

因为…我真的累了…

October..ma favorite month

Yea~ is October...

A month that I love the most..

1st day of oct..

Same as usual..busying for my work..progress claim, work progress chart, measurement, quotation, site valuation and so so so on..

Hu~ 2 more months to go and luckily I didn't promise my contract manager , mr.vincent, the big liar to extend my internship..

Work load getting heavy and heavier but I did enjoy my work so much..

I choose the course that I'm interested with it and so do my job.. Work as interest but not work as a 'work'..

Sound complicated right??

Well~ ignore what I'm saying, I'm always talking something that others hard to understand.. XP

2 more months to go before my holidays come..

Having western cuisine as my lunch just now..lunch treated by Mr.Jimmy, reinforced bar's supplier..

Láfité.. The restaurant name...

A France theme restaurant..

Love the environment ,high classes surround with some soft classic music, romantic environment,all the staff are so kind and friendly and of course the price was very high as well..

But it is worth..as the cuisine is quite special and tasty..

Hmm..it was the best western cuisine in the town..

Thanks mr.jimmy for the expensive lunch..(around rm300 for just 3 of us)..

Having a great meal and great time with them.. 

Laying on my lovely purple bed...

Zzz...zzz...zzzz...zzz...

Turn on my sleeping mode..

Zzz...zzzz...zzz...zzz...

Zzz...zzz...zzz..

Zzz...zzz...

Zzz

Good nite world❤️

#throwback

Le fish n chip, scallop, smoke duck salad, grill chicken chop, spaghetti , salmon and dessert ...special thanks to mr.jimmy =)

好想好好大睡一场…

最近真的很累很累…

身体上的累，心灵上的累再加上精神上的累…

呼～

简直不是开玩笑的…

其实还蛮佩服自己的,竟然还能撑到那么久…

也蛮怀疑自己到底能撑到什么时候?

有时候真的好累好累…

感觉快要撑不下了,但却硬撑着,死撑…

甚至有时候累到会在想：如果我什么都不是? 如果我不是我,如果我什么都没有。那该多好…什么都不用烦,不用担心,不用心淡…

有些东西,当你没有的时候可能会觉得很想得到…没有的时候可能会觉得很空虚…

可是我想说,当你真正拥有时你必须顾虑很多很多,你必须担心这个担心那个…

心里好多东西压着,却不知从何说起…

最近更是糟糕…

告诉自己不去理会,眼不见为净…

我想我做到了…甚至不会去理会…你越是在乎,你就越没有价值!就会变的可有可无…

庆幸的是在我需要找人倾诉的时候总是会有那么一个他会及时的出现…

可悲的却是……

有时候我真的很怀疑…

随着时间一天一天的过,一天一天的长大…

才发觉有些东西你真的必须考虑好好,想清楚才做决定…

不然真的会后悔…

我知道自己…

我不喜欢失败的感觉，不论是功课,友情还是爱情…

觉得自己没有能力经营或兼顾好我真的会选择一开始就放弃…

好过到最后失败了…那种感觉真的很恐怖…

开始为自己的未来做打算…

以后的日子应该怎么走应该怎么做?

心里也已经有数…

大家都说：女孩子太过强悍总是不惹人喜欢…

也许吧…

我有自己的想法,靠自己总是比靠别人来得好…

毕竟自己是过来人…

可以的话我也想当个小女人啊…

谁不想能天天在自己爱人身边撒撒娇,做个小鸟依人的小女人?

谁不想随时随地有个肩膀靠?

可是就是过不了心里那关…

总是担心被伤害…

算了…

反正我也不在乎别人怎么说怎么看…

老实说我也没有必要去讨好那些不重要的人…我觉得根本没有那种必要…

毕竟自己也不喜欢随便乱搭，到处乱交朋友…

我还是我…

When u give lots important to someone,you lose yours importance in their life..

It is true..

So start from now I will be the one that I used to be..

Chill =)

Imperfection

Life won't be as easy as what you think..

It also won't be as smooth as what you expect..

Do you ever tried this before!??

When u plan something so hard and maybe you felt it was so perfect for you and you are really excited and look forward for it..at the end there is something not really urgent for you, not really in your concern but because of responsibility you just cant ignore it, reject it and avoid it..ya..it ruined my whole planing..

Do u ever tried this before?? and do you know what's that feeling??

Bloody hell..

I thought it will be the perfect 1... Gods know!??

now I've to replan again...

And everything is too late!!!!!

Expectation ended up with disappointed..

Guess the one will have such feeling too..

Argh..I'm really just so sorry for the imperfection..it really out of my expectation..

I know it means lot to my somebody but what to do?!!!

Beside that sorry n guilty I really don't know what should I do..

It totally mess me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why so coincidence?!!!!!!!

Arghhhhh..wish to bang wall now... T.T

💔

不是不满足..

更不是不知足..

我很珍惜我所拥有的..

我很感恩老天的恩典..

谢谢他把你带到我身边...

可是..这一夜..

心在滴血..

我不是他它她们

请不要把我跟他它她们混为一谈..

也许不是你的问题..

而是我根本还在框框外..

根本挤不进

算了..

反正我也不喜欢勉强

是我的就是我的

不是我的再怎么样还是会跑掉..

这一夜,真的很痛

原来..

是我太高估我自己了

原来....

是我把自己想的太重要了

失望

Tragedy

Receive a breaking news from cousin sister..

Her father in law was one of the victim of the genting tragedy...

Suddenly there is like something hit on my head, mind went blank for few seconds..ya..when the time you get the news that someone you know was kill in an accident..could you just imagine how was the feeling??!! Although we just meet for only once..

May your soul could rest in peace uncle, my deepest condolence to my cousin sis and her mother in law..

Lets pray for the tragedy,n may those victims could rest in peace..

Moral of the above incident: do appreciate whatever you have now.. Life is fragile, human are just too tiny.. We can't predict what is going to happen on the next seconds..so, don't let yourself have the chance to regret...

By the way..I do believe in god..I always believe that everything happen for a reason..god has arrange everything in everyone's life..

#faith#hope#love

Je n'aime pas vraiment vous

Another day gone.

Few days didn't updated my blog..is time to add in something new =)

Well,this blog is all about my own perspective..I just wrote out whatever in my mind..get out from this if u doesn't like it..

Yea.. I admit I really just doesn't like both of u..ya..just both of u..

As stated in bible,lord said " love all the people around u including your enemies..

I did it, I really did it..but except u both..

I just can't really accept you both..

Dislike means dislike..

No matter who u are?How close you are with the people who close to me, or what u did..

Once I set my own mindset,tats my final decision and I'm not going to change it anymore..

Well,maybe u can said tat I'm just too stingy..whatever..I wun care how others think about me..it won't affect me at all..

What I'm going to tell is:sorry you are not eligible to become my friend although you are someone best friend..it doesn't means that I should treated u as my best friend!! NO!! It's impossible..

Just stay away from me and get out of my life..you make me eyesore..

I know you will see this..

Always stalk n spread like a busybody.

Sometime I was wondering are you just too free? Nothing to do?! I just cant really understand why there is such a busybody person around me?! Read my blog and tell others about it..well,I think I should declare something here..I don't ever need anyone help me to "promote" whatever in my blog..I'm not like others blogger..my blog is just a space for me to scream out whatever hide inside my deepest heart..it is a place for me to record down my own feeling or so called a secret place..the one who wish to know more about me will surf it themself.so,thanks for you busybodyness 

And please be cooperation..merçi

Last but not least..

Better stay away from me..

I will never show my pretty nice face towards you if forced to having meals with you...

This is real; this is me...

I'm not a backstaber..so whatever I doesn't like it, I will just scream it out, no offense n please don't treated me as a weirdos..everyone has their own temper..

I will respect you only if you respect me.. =)

有时候

有时候..

喜欢一个人..

静静的思考我的未来..

有时候..

喜欢有人陪..

有时候..

就是喜欢不被打扰..

有时候..

却喜欢热热闹闹..

有时候..

会突然不想说话..

没有原因..

有时候却一直说个不停..

有时候..

很善良..

有时候..

比魔鬼还要可怕..

有时候..

很爱玩..

有时候..

却认真到让人害怕..

有时候..

笑脸迎人..

有时候..

脸黑到比火炭还黑..

有时候..

爱到要生要死..

有时候..

突然就觉得很讨厌..

有时候...

真想一巴一巴的去巴那些讨厌的人..

有时候..

却选择原谅敌人..

有时候..

不是不想说,而是希望能有个懂我的人..

不需要多说多问,就知道我要什么我想什么..

有时候..

觉得说了倒不如不说..

因为说了等于白说..

有时候..

会突然觉得很累很累..

好想睡上三天三夜..

有时候..

会觉得自己放得太多..

到头来结果还是一样..悲剧..

有时候..

会有冲动..

冷静以后想想其实自己不应该有那种想法...

唉〜

我就是那么...

糟糕...

突然又有那种很讨厌的感觉...

真的很讨厌啊!!!!!!!!!!!

黑色星期二

不喜欢就是不喜欢,没有必要带着面具假装嬉皮笑脸对着你..

没有必要去刻意讨好..

这世界太多假惺惺的人...

太多好管闲事的人..

不好意思..

没有必要那么八卦.

如果吃饱撑着没事做的话,那麻烦去找东西来学,提升一下自己的气质..

对一些我不屑的人,我说话一向不客气..

我理得你是什么人的谁谁谁还是谁谁谁的什么人..

只要是我不喜欢的,那很抱歉,我连看你一眼都懒,更别说是跟你说话...

不喜欢就是不喜欢,没有必要假装喜欢.更没有必要因为某某某而要去刻意讨好..

我还是我..我不会因为任何原因而改变..

今天终于见识到什么是人心险恶..

我不会去计较,毕竟大家的阶级都不同..

 

Way

Everything happen for a reason..

Sometime I prefer to remain silent...

Is it my heart getting stronger and stronger or should said it is getting colder and colder?!!

Well...whatever..

I know I shouldn't have this kind of mindset..

But it really just came across my mind and the feeling is getting stronger and stronger..

Lord said: love everyone just like I love you all...

I try to do so..but sorry for "those"..I really couldn't make it..

Maybe is because....

Ya..I admit it, recently it is easy for me to have such feeling..

This is the consequence..

Is time to pull mysev bek..

I'm still me..

Dislike means dislike..I won't pretend myself to smile with u or pretend to be nice with u..

That's me....

The way of love n hate come from...

Heavenly Father..

I beg for your forgiveness..

Please forgive all the sin that I've done..

Replace my negative attitude with kindness..

Replace my negative mindset with the positive one..

Guide me and direct me to the right path.

All I want is to become as holy as you my lord..

In Jesus name,amen..

-.-

The very 1st time..

It drops down without any reason..

Maybe I too care about it...

I wish to know what was happening..

Try my best to control my emotional..

Keep on told mysev stay strong , be strong..

But too bad..

It still drops down out of my control..

Tonight...

The toughest night................

好难得

爱让我们变得比单身愚笨
也让我们拥有从未的完整
问也不问就越陷越深
如果不是那个吻那年会更冷
相信变成了某种特殊天分
缘分只是自欺欺人的天真
想念总是在夜里狂奔
特别想他着魔的眼神

好难得你遇见了对的人
难得你很认真不想太多去奋不顾身
好难得你爱上了对的人
可惜他不是你的可能

我们都曾以为爱就像清晨
原来最难爱过的竟是黄昏
我们都爱过某个诗人
可是诗人也是平凡人

好难得你遇见了对的人
难得你很认真不想太多去奋不顾身
好难得你爱上了对的人
可惜他不是你的可能

好难得我们遇见了对的人
难得好几辈子的好运才有几回完整
好难得我们爱上了对的人
就算他不是她最后的人
也祝他更勇敢爱别人

*recently fall in love with this song..the rhythm is nice and the lyric is awesome* <3

认真地思考了一整晚..

认真的想了又想..

原来..

我错了...

自大到以为自己有那种本事..

可笑.

我竟然奢望那种根本不可能的事..

还以为已经不一样了..

结果..原来还是一样..

每一次当我想跨出那一步时却...

我可以后悔吗?

如果时间重来还会一样吗?

想了整晚终于有答案了..

请记住..

我可以很好也可以变得很快很快...

24.6.13

The pain was killing me..

Again..the consequence of consume too much of cold drinks!! ><"

Those memories before came across my mind..

The one who used to help me applied medicated oil when the pain visiting me..

But now...

Wat I can do is just rolling in my bed..

God damn!! Imma really in pain!!

I knew I shouldn't think bek those old past history..but it really came across my mind by this moment..

Not I doesn't appreciate but it doesn't worth at all..

I just can't stand everything..

One thing I should declare is I doesn't regret with my decision..at least now I really didn't felt it!!

=>

A word has brighten up my day..

As usual.. Just like before ..

This is the only things that it doesn't change..

It cheers me during the boring time..

Thank you..

And Thx god for everything..

=)

自寻烦恼

沉默并不代表接受..

很多时候选择不说出来是因为不想破坏气氛..

有时候自己会在想,我到底算什么??

你到底把我当成什么??

不去理会反而变本加厉..

这是我自找的吗?

可能吧..毕竟还是自己的选择,怨不得..

也许对你来说这算不了什么...

对..其实真的没什么..

只是一次又一次的没顾虑我的感受,.

我失控了...

觉得我根本算不了什么,凭什么?我凭什么??

就觉得麻烦收敛收敛下,顾虑下我的感受好吗? 我虽然表面冷血但还是有感觉的..

就像之前说过的：如果你给我的跟给别人是一样的那我宁愿不要..我不是别人,我不喜欢跟别人分享我的东西..如果你要把自己跟别人分享,那很抱歉,我只能说对不起,我并不想要了...

算了...

没有必要勉强

该来的还是会来要走的强留也留不住..

今天失控了，对不起..

当意识到有可能受到伤害时,我还是会选择自我保护自己..

自己也知道最疼自己,最爱自己,最不会伤害自己的还是天父和家人...

我...不是一个人..

天意

很乱很乱...

果然,一句话又影响了我的心情.

如果早在半年前也许我会..

可是...

只能说对不起,我选择假装不知道,一笑置之..

我已经有选择了,虽然我不能确定是不是最后一个..

谢谢你..

可惜你来迟了..

情人节..

情人节..一个那么熟悉却又陌生的节日..
也不知道从什么时候开始,这个节日对我来说已经没什么好期待没什么特别意义..
今年的情人节..嗯..过的还蛮不错.至少跟以往不同.有惊喜有感动..
一大班朋友一起过.一起喝茶.一起玩.一起疯.一起来我家闹.感觉真的好好.结果今年的情人节礼物就是鸡饭..哈哈哈..是谁说情人节一定要跟情人过?!

多了该多的..希望是对的...
虽然还不敢肯定.
心里的那个位置真的已经被取代了吗?
我不知道..

其实今天还蛮emo的..
一个情人节那么多的告白..大家都很无聊都选在今天告白..真的很不明白.结果又很haolian很无情的拒绝拒绝再拒绝..
真不知道今年到底走什么桃花运..真够讨厌够烦的..
突如其来的告白把十几年那么要好的关系都搞到好僵..
其实他也知道是不可能的..
他知道我想要的是什么也知道我的想法..
但..我还是可以感觉到他的失望失落..
害怕我们那么要好的关系就这样的变淡.
害怕我们会变的尴尬.
真的不希望.毕竟十多年的友情.
曾经大家是那么的要好那么没有距离.
想哭的时候他的肩膀随时都可以借来靠.
想去哪里只要一通电话马上到我家门口..
一起上课,一起翘课,一起被罚站..
真的很怕会因为这样而变的陌生..
我还是比较喜欢我们可以是很要好很要好的朋友..
希望我们还是....

•明明就不习惯牵手为何却主动把手勾?!•
•你的心事太多我不会戳破..•
•明明就他比较温柔,也许他能给你更多•
•不用抉择我会自动变朋友•
最近超爱这首歌的歌词.看似容易明白实际上却令人难以捉摸..就像我一样..xDD

明明就....

好快好快..就这样的开学了一个星期.
year3 sem 1...
我必须加油.专注于我的学业..
其他的先不要去理会也不要去想..
然后其实自己也应该知道也清楚了某些事情..
明明就明明就..我以为我以为..
我到底在明明就还有以为什么东西呢?
其实态度应该已经很明确了吧..只是不想去接受..
看到了某些东西让我更明确,也知道那个人肯定不会是我..
下定决心..坦然面对..
加油...
主啊..此时此刻我真的很需要你...

.Prayer.

Heavenly Father,
direct my path..I cannot manage certain task and responsibility by my own strength,let along making rational decision.
therefore, I ask for your wisdom to know what to do, what to say and where to go.
Lord,
this world are full of hypocrisy, lies and deceit. in order for me to make it in this lifetime I need discernment to exposes what's hidden in darkness.
I give you my pain, my tears, my stronghold, my mistakes, my worries, my fears because you care for me.
you are my light, you are my sources, you are my strength, you are my provider, you are my healer, you are my everything..
instruct my path, father..
in Jesus name I pray, amen...